Before reading I just want to inform you that there may be more typo’s than usual as I’m pretty doped up on my medication this even
I am feeling very anxious. Tomorrow I see my consultant about my foot which is causing some panic within me. I actually don’t know what they are going to do next to my foot. In a letter to my GP from my consultant it mentioned surgery if putting my leg in plaster didn’t work, but I don’t know if they’ll go ahead withdraw it.
To be honest, I’d love nothing more than them to operate on it as it’ll actually feel like something is being done about the injury. But at the same time I’m left feeling very anxious about it, although I am trying not to be but that’s easier said than done.
I’m not going to lie, I’ll be so bloody angry if my cast comes off and I’m expected to be able to walk on my foot. It’s still so twisted and being in a cast has made absolutely no difference in straightening it. It just seems like the last 6 weeks have been a complete waste.
This may sound stupid but I’m also extremely anxious about making my way to the hospital. I’ve fallen over several times which has been both painful and humiliating. Each time I’ve done it I’ve ended up in more pain and it’s made me so scared to even go out.
I just want this all to be over. I’m sick and tired of it now. Each day that passes I become more and more physically and a mentally drained. I just can’t go on like this. I’m literally at breaking point and I don’t want to keep going through this pain every day.
With a bit of luck I’ll be alright and my consultant will give me some good news….I’m not holding much hope, but I’ll just have to wait and see.
It would be really nice if I were able to go to bed and actually sleep without my mind being all fuzzy. I’d love to wake up feeling noymfhgs. Lin n u