Heading for a fall!

I have very mixed emotions right now and I’m not sure I can do them justice by typing them on here. I know that I’m heading for a fall, not physically, I mean emotionally. 

I have this really strange feeling building up inside me. It’s like it wants to escape and in doing so it feels as though all of my emotions are being jumbled up and being set alight causing this burning feeling inside.

I can’t quite put my finger in what’s actually caused this. My emotions have been somewhat stable over the last few days, however my mood hasn’t. The littlest of things just set me off, just like the mess inside my head. Everything and anyone are annoying me. I know that I’m in desperate need of speaking with my GP and I will be doing so on Monday as I have a telephone appointment with her. My only worry is that she’ll try to get the crisis team involved which I don’t want as the my family will know how I’ve really been feeling. Just that thought alone is enough to keep me quiet.

I just want everything to go away and I want to be left alone. Is that so much to ask?!

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Author: tearsandfears83

Hi, my name is Zoe and I'd like to take this opportunity to welcome you to my blog. I just like to start by mentioning that I am dyslexic so please be prepared for the typos as I'm sure there will be many. Anyway moving on, this is the first time that I have done anything like a blog online as I usually write my thoughts and feelings down on paper....but thought I should get up to date with the times! I have a degree in psychology and have completed my MEd in Counselling in Education. All of the work that I have done for my current degree is based on self-harm in one way or another! I have quite a lot of first hand experience with mental health issues as I've battled with them on and off for a number of years now. I feel that I'm at the stage in my life where I can finally help other people that have experienced similar experiences to me. I know that this sounds cheesy, but I really want to help people to overcome issue that they face as I feel that everything that I've been through will have been worth it. I still struggle at times with my own mental health issues and often need to let my feelings. In previous times I would have used self-harm to help me though, but I'm now able to direct my emotions in other ways such as drawing, writing poetry and through music. I'm unsure if anyone other than myself will read anything I write and that's okay. I understand that I can't change the world with what I write, but maybe I'll be able to bring people a little comfort in knowing that if I can get through very low points in my life, then they can too!

4 thoughts on “Heading for a fall!”

  1. I felt like that a lot this past week and ended up in crisis. As awful as it was to have to explain things to so many new people and put my family through it, it got me new medication and a psychiatrist so I think it was worth it. Good luck no matter what, and know you’re not alone 🙂

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  2. I’m in the waiting room at my naturalpathic doc now. We are going over my mood meds. I’ve been up and down like crazy when all should be good. I’m hypo manic now. Yesterday I was ticked off at the world. Hang tight. Hugs! ❤️

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