Getting more and more frustrated! 

Well it’s 6:50 am and I’ve had around and hours sleep tonight. I’m beginning to get more and more frustrated at the fact I’m not sleeping very well. It’s like a vicious circle, I struggle getting to sleep, I sleep for an hour or so, I wake up, then stay awake for hours and then I can’t get back to sleep even though I feel absolutely exhausted. I’m pretty sure I sleep more when it’s light than I do when it’s dark. 

I’m trying to work out exactly what it is that’s preventing me from staying asleep. Obviously my foot is playing a big part in keeping me awake as if I change sleeping position I end up getting a sharp pain which is agony. But I’m pretty good at staying still whilst I’m asleep. It could be the fact that I’ve been having bad dreams which keep repeating, it’s the same dream all the time. I don’t even think Mr Freud would know where to start analysing it so I think it’s best I avoid going into that. I know that when I’ve been depressed in the past I’ve had issues sleeping but I’m on a ridiculously high dose of painkillers which, in theory should knock me out. So why is it I’m still awake?! I know getting frustrated and winding myself up is only going to prevent me sleeping even more, but I can’t help it. 

The more exhausted I’m getting, the more frustrated and unhappy I’m becoming. I’d just like one night where I sleep all the way through and wake up feeling refreshed. Is that really too much to ask?!


Author: tearsandfears83

Hello there, I’d like to take this opportunity to welcome you to my blog. I just like to start by mentioning that I am dyslexic so please be prepared for the typos as I'm sure there will be many. Anyway moving on, this is the first time that I have done anything like a blog online as I usually write my thoughts and feelings down on paper....but thought I should get up to date with the times! I have a degree in psychology and have completed my MEd in Counselling in Education. All of the work that I have done for my current degree is based on self-harm in one way or another! I have quite a lot of first hand experience with mental health issues as I've battled with them on and off for a number of years now. I feel that I'm at the stage in my life where I can finally help other people that have experienced similar experiences to me. I know that this sounds cheesy, but I really want to help people to overcome issue that they face as I feel that everything that I've been through will have been worth it. I still struggle at times with my own mental health issues and often need to let my feelings. In previous times I would have used self-harm to help me though, but I'm now able to direct my emotions in other ways such as drawing, writing poetry and through music. I'm unsure if anyone other than myself will read anything I write and that's okay. I understand that I can't change the world with what I write, but maybe I'll be able to bring people a little comfort in knowing that if I can get through very low points in my life, then they can too!

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